Tomorrow is KL circuit.

I really got to do my best.

I want to be in play to win so badly.

I want this more than anything in the world!

Tomorrow check in time is 4:30pm,

really want this.

To myself: Play your normal game, play relaxly... I can do it...

Damn! You got your own MAC, just use it la...

Always use this computer for what?

Then let me use it about 9:45pm and want me to sleep at 10pm...

Damn la! Got computer don't want to use, waste my time.

Hate this...

I bowl against the world

PART 1: Life's stressful
hate life for being so unfair.
i put my heart and soul in bowling, i tried my best in it, because of the 2 years in Bangsar, because of that stupid coach, my bad habits in bowling started building. 2 years later (now), my bad habits remained, scored still at 170 average. I need higher average at 16 years old, maybe 180 or 190, 200 will be the best. hopefully with this new coach, my game gonna improved. i really need to improved. I LOVE BOWLING.
other than bowling, is volleyball. malaysia private chinese school volleyball competition is in this coming holiday, 3 year once, so i really wanna go, it will be my first and last malaysia private chinese school volleyball competition. but the problem s all my training will clashes with my bowling competition. i'm gonna go to the competition, but the volleybal only choose 9 ppl. so if i don't go to training, how am i going to get pick? stupid headmaster, thought he say all can go? what should i do?

i walked home alone.

SPORTS DAY 3rd day

GREAT!!!

I finally run 4x400m and guess what...

I got into final!

It's like finally getting the result that i wanted

Gave my heart in it, run till my legs were not mine

Finally getting back what I put my heart into

i win it for myself.

SPORTS DAY 1st day end

Should have not run so many...

Result not good at all, tomorrow got to give it my everything to win...

Give everything --- to WIN!!!

My legs don't feel like my legs anymore...

I don't have control over my legs...

I run against the world

Some people gave there whole life up to do things that they love to,

things that they have passion about it.

Everybody have their own passion,

each one's passion is different from the other,

it might be swimming, basketball, tennis...

No matter what their passion is,

they work hard to achieve a result.

The feeling after shooting a ball into the hoop on a basketball game,

the feeling of bowling a strike and reach a 200 game,

the feeling of swimming your butt out and get first,

the feeling is awesome, nothing can describe it.

Even though the training are tired as hell,

or the coach kept forcing you,

once you get a prize, everything is worth it.

Being like everybody else might be easier,

but following your passion, work hard in it,

it will be harder, tougher,

but it will be worth it,

it will be something that you will always look back,

and say, "I glad i did it."

Tears might fall, body might injured,

but if a heart stays strong and never giving up your passion,

nothing can stop you.

The competition might be tough,

it might slow you down alot,

but nothing is good without competition,

once you win them, your feeling is indescribable.

If you have passion in it, you don't really need talent.

So I choose...
Bowling (I have more passion in it.)
but it's complicated, it a team thing for volleyball,
i don't wanna let them down.
But...

I am tired from choosing

no longer a prefect,
no longer listening to rules.

i got a decision to make, damn those decision.
it between bowling n volleyball.
on 11th ~13th july, got both bowling n volleyball competition.
damn the decision, y must it be on the same day?
which one should i choose?

i am standing in the middle of a T-junction.