there's many things i want to update about. but i think i'll say this first.

everybody been blaming me for the heart-breaking incident. once again i'm sorry for it, but i believe a true friend will know why i do it. i don't need to repeat myself about how busy i am this month, i can't cope up with it anymore, so the only way let some things go.

i didn't mean to hurt you, but the pressure and my sceldule. everything been pushing me to my limits and that's when my feeling started fading. i don't care what people think of me, but this is what i need to do, to give myself space to breath.

i wish you all the best.

i walk alone.

Life sucks, then you die.

-i shall be so lucky.

~promise for updates on weekend.

i'm tired.

time flies...

i am so tired lately. i've been so busy with volleyball, bowling and studies. believe anot, i only leave school at earliest 6pm this few weeks. all this activities really is killing me. the only things i do at home nowadays are only reading "Breaking Dawn" and sleep. (don't really have the energy to read more than 1 chapter per day) i don't even think i have 8 hours of sleeping. damn! i also started tuition this month, it's eating up all my time, but for my results, it will be worth it.

to tell the truth, i am really sad that i got 5th in MSSKL. even though i got 2 golds (double and team), but my all events got 5th. they only want 4 to represent KL, so i'm a reserve. i'm still very sad about it, i really wanted this. no point crying now right? but i lose by 18 points. i fail so bad.

volleyball is going well, we really did play as a team today. our goal: get into the finals, so we can play in wilayah! i really want this so much! just don't mistake and i'm sure we can succeed. competition in 6 days. go team!

studies. SPM in 7 months. i really want to get a good result. i want to study A-level oversea. it's hard to focus. god! i really need to start studying! after the volleyball, no more excuses! i really need to score my SPM!

from evonna-fairytales.blogspot.com => high school really bitter, sweet and strange.you wish that high school will come to an end faster so you do not have depend on caffeine to keep you awake just to finish your mountain high homework but at the same time, you wish that everyday to be a little longer just to spend more time in school, enjoying moments that you'll never encounter in your life again.

i agree with it too. i am also quite emotional these few days. (just so you know) =) time really flies. i want time to stop for awhile, let me catch my breath again. the past week was all about competition, before i even got the time to be sad about the lose, theres another competition again. today our class whiteboard wrote: 30 days to mid term. i am not ready for it. i haven't been study too. i just wish time stop for me to catch my breath.

we are a team! why can't we play like team?

lets just don't fight, at least after Pudu competition.

we still can win it.

i'll try my best not to fight and in the competition.

good luck.

i'm sorry i hurt you.

i want...

lastest update:

i am single again!

i need to give u somethings. my result and sport isn't looking any good right now. i need to stay focus. i somehow felt i lost my wayagain. SPM in 7 months and i'm freaking out now! after that, it's all about result and choices. to stay for form 6 or to go oversea? i need a great result. my bowling and volleyball isn't that great too. i want direction. i want to enjoy every moment i have now, with my friends. teenager life only 1 year, 8 months and 23 days. we are all growing up. is there a way to slow things down?

MSSKL update (bowling): Single 5th, Double: 2nd (Silver), All Event: 5th

Tomorrow playing team. I played a 180 average this two days. I still get 5th! Only the top 4 can go Kedah to play for MSSM. i cried the whole day already. I really wanted this. I might cry again I tried so hard, maybe not good enough. lost by 18 points. I really wanted to get top 4! i failed.

i'm sorry for hurting you.

give me some directions, lead me.

i...dunno